what do you do with a space?

i read an article this week that told me carrots are "tricky".

cam wants to grow carrots, and beets, and lettuce, and beans, and potatoes.... i totally agree with each of these choices... and so - excited, i started to read about growing things.  The result - now, i am very, very, nervous... what if i am not good at growing these things? what if i am not good at growoing anything?

these thoughts are troubling as i have never handled failure well. i have never accepted my own failings with dignity. i can be very hard on myself. i can opt out of things i am not good at... cut and run, as they say... i can be a coward.

i am also troubled by my apparent project finicky-ness affliction.  it appears, on reflection (and candidly, on obesrvation) that i have a  problem finishing projects.  this is a bit of a concern; this fickleness.

this came to light while i was surveying my knitting basket yesterday when i got home from the office yesterday.  it was shocking to realise that i have about 8 projects o the go - each at a different level of completeness... though none is actually complete.  orphaned knitting.  negligent knitter...

this is, of course, not to say that i have never finished a project - i most certainly have... hats and scarves and blankets and mittens... all finished. and yet the basket teems with projects i have started and now neglect in favour of some new, more delicious wool...

will this happen in the garden? will my carrots suffer this very same fate??? will they be favourites for a brief time... only to be replaced by the sexy newness of neighbouring rows of broccoli?

i suppose only time will tell. in advance, i would like to apologise, both for my failings and my neglect, to the carrots...